i suck.

i feel like total crap right now. there's this friend of mine, and i have treated her like crap. of course not intentionally, but that doesn't make it any better. and right now i am such a crappy person that i can't even bring myself to call her or even text her and apologize. but i really am sorry. and you know who you are, and maybe you'll read this. i hope so. because you are amazing and wonderful and beautiful, and i wish i was half as good as you at writing.
and i didn't ask, but only because i don't like to stress my parents out...i feel like they're under enough as it is. so in my quest to keep everyone happy, i hurt one of the most important people in my life.


i'm sorry paige. please forgive me.