I came here
with an
idea
But it must
have run
away
Gone somewhere
where all ideas
go to expire
and fade
until
One day, probably soon
I will forget that I ever
even had an idea to
write down for all
of you in the
first place.
13 September 2010
28 July 2010
Mutual.
The nicest words
on any human's ears:
I know what you mean.
I understand.
when spoken in the most sincere way.
Isn't that what we all want?
Someone who we don't feel the need to explain ourselves to?
Someone who just
gets it.
In their eyes you can just see it.
When you're pouring your heart out to them
and something in them just clicks.
"Yeah, I know exactly what you mean."
It's such a relief.
To know that you aren't alone.
To know that you're not crazy.
To know that, no matter how far away they are,
no matter how different their life is,
in the end, we're all just people;
some of us just understand each other
better than others.
on any human's ears:
I know what you mean.
I understand.
when spoken in the most sincere way.
Isn't that what we all want?
Someone who we don't feel the need to explain ourselves to?
Someone who just
gets it.
In their eyes you can just see it.
When you're pouring your heart out to them
and something in them just clicks.
"Yeah, I know exactly what you mean."
It's such a relief.
To know that you aren't alone.
To know that you're not crazy.
To know that, no matter how far away they are,
no matter how different their life is,
in the end, we're all just people;
some of us just understand each other
better than others.
12 July 2010
Post number 100.
My 100th post is just going to say this:
I have flaws, I have weaknesses, and sometimes I forget that we're all just human and no one is perfect. Even the people who we want to be perfect. In spite of my imperfections, I am still a happy, loving, and passionate person. I like to think that my good qualities outweigh my bad. Or maybe I'm just blessed to have so many people in my life who love me enough to overlook my little weird quirks for the most part. For that, I am truly thankful. I'm so incredibly lucky to have the family that I have. I've lived a rather sheltered life. It wasn't until very recently that I realized that very few people have what I've always known and taken for granted. I know that no matter what I do or where I go, my family will always love me and support me. They might have to beat some sense into me, but that just comes with the territory. I have a home to live in, food to eat, clothes to wear, and a car to drive. My education is entirely paid for, as long as I work hard. I know that I can do just about anything I set my mind to, and I'm not afraid to try, because I know there are people who will catch me if I fall. I'm not in a hurry to find someone to love me because my whole life is full of love. I know the right person will come along at the right time, when we're both ready, and until then I'm just enjoying this tail-end of my childhood. I'm going to travel the world and I'm going to meet amazing people and make friends from all around the globe. And nothing is going to stop me.
I have flaws, I have weaknesses, and sometimes I forget that we're all just human and no one is perfect. Even the people who we want to be perfect. In spite of my imperfections, I am still a happy, loving, and passionate person. I like to think that my good qualities outweigh my bad. Or maybe I'm just blessed to have so many people in my life who love me enough to overlook my little weird quirks for the most part. For that, I am truly thankful. I'm so incredibly lucky to have the family that I have. I've lived a rather sheltered life. It wasn't until very recently that I realized that very few people have what I've always known and taken for granted. I know that no matter what I do or where I go, my family will always love me and support me. They might have to beat some sense into me, but that just comes with the territory. I have a home to live in, food to eat, clothes to wear, and a car to drive. My education is entirely paid for, as long as I work hard. I know that I can do just about anything I set my mind to, and I'm not afraid to try, because I know there are people who will catch me if I fall. I'm not in a hurry to find someone to love me because my whole life is full of love. I know the right person will come along at the right time, when we're both ready, and until then I'm just enjoying this tail-end of my childhood. I'm going to travel the world and I'm going to meet amazing people and make friends from all around the globe. And nothing is going to stop me.
06 July 2010
It's amazing how one person can change your outlook on things.
Thank you. You might not ever know how much I needed a friend like you right now. I'm so glad we met.
23 June 2010
I know running isn't the answer.
I ran for two years and just recently it all caught up with me. It's not pretty.
But right now, more than anything, I just want to leave. Just to get away from this place where people already have in their mind a preconceived notion of who I am, and how I am. They don't have a clue. Even when I just get away for a little while it's so refreshing to meet people and not have this whole thing hanging over my head. They take me for me, not what I was or what I have been or even what they think I have been.
I'm ready for August 21st. So ready.
But right now, more than anything, I just want to leave. Just to get away from this place where people already have in their mind a preconceived notion of who I am, and how I am. They don't have a clue. Even when I just get away for a little while it's so refreshing to meet people and not have this whole thing hanging over my head. They take me for me, not what I was or what I have been or even what they think I have been.
I'm ready for August 21st. So ready.
Maybe it's because I went outside the minute I woke up.
Maybe it's because I just got some stuff off my chest last night.
Maybe it's because I let go of a lot of hard feelings and also realized that some friendships and relationships were just going nowhere, and came to grips with that sad fact.
Or maybe, just maybe, it's because I think I finally, finally, truly realized that I am not a bad person, and that I will be okay, no matter what gets thrown at me.
Maybe it's because I let go of a lot of hard feelings and also realized that some friendships and relationships were just going nowhere, and came to grips with that sad fact.
Or maybe, just maybe, it's because I think I finally, finally, truly realized that I am not a bad person, and that I will be okay, no matter what gets thrown at me.
I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad person for having feelings.
You know what? I just disagree with some of your opinions. Does that mean I don't love you? Not at all. I love you more than you'll ever know. But just because you can't understand why I get jealous and hurt doesn't mean that it's wrong for me to feel those things. So I'm just going to continue to be happy with me, and I will continue to be the NICE person that I am. You never tell me that I'm not nice but somehow my mind twists things that you say to make me think that you think I'm not a nice person. Well, you know what? My whole life, people have told me what a nice person I was. And I am choosing right now to believe them instead of those weird vibes I get from you sometimes.
As much as I love you, and always will, I'm sure, I need to stop worrying so much about your needs and ignoring my own. I mean, this whole thing is one-sided anyway. I can't change your feelings. I've done everything I can - you know exactly how I feel. It's time for me to just let things go however they will. I'll gladly be your friend, the best you've ever had. You can't worry about hurting me, because that's just part of life. I've accepted it - people hurt sometimes. Just because I'm hurting doesn't mean I can't be happy. I'm alive, I'm breathing, I have wonderful family and friends - so what if my heart's a little bruised? Something will work out in the end.
So basically, this is to say - I'm okay.
As much as I love you, and always will, I'm sure, I need to stop worrying so much about your needs and ignoring my own. I mean, this whole thing is one-sided anyway. I can't change your feelings. I've done everything I can - you know exactly how I feel. It's time for me to just let things go however they will. I'll gladly be your friend, the best you've ever had. You can't worry about hurting me, because that's just part of life. I've accepted it - people hurt sometimes. Just because I'm hurting doesn't mean I can't be happy. I'm alive, I'm breathing, I have wonderful family and friends - so what if my heart's a little bruised? Something will work out in the end.
So basically, this is to say - I'm okay.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
